johnmdemarco posted on February 20, 2011 11:23
I can barely breathe at the moment. My heart’s thirst and hunger for more of Christ is overwhelming me, shaking me, leaving me in awe and wonder of the depths of his grace and forgiveness.
My agenda this afternoon was to fold some laundry. With each pile I stacked together for transporting upstairs to the appropriate bedrooms, the desire for God stacked even higher. I finally had to stop and open this journal and write, or the rocks would have cried out.
I’m in a season of intense renewal, set into motion by some literal and metaphorical brokenness. My mind has soared in intellectual pursuit of the divine for many years, but my heart had grown cold for such a long season. I craved for the things of this world, and put some of them before any interest in Christ-likeness for myself or others. I’m deeply sorrowful for those whom I have hurt, and for those whom I have under-served by not making myself fully available to Christ to use my gifts as he pleased.
My prayer right now is just, “Lord, keep it going, please!” I long for increased strength to offer the disciplines that the Holy Spirit can work through to continue to ingrain Christ-like habits of mind and deed. I am thankful for a community of others who also hunger after Christ, that we might strengthen and reinforce one another.